training flashback at begining of 2007.......

Now the end of the year has come. I quite marvel with the speed th time passed by. It is almost New Year already!! But now i suddenly flash back to the past i once experience at this moment. It is a hard time to pass. But enjoy Lord is the centre. Well i feel i want to write it because something inside me told me to share it.....

3 years ago, that is at 18th Discember of 2006, i was going to the 4 months traning at Penang. But seriously, i was not going for will. but with a little force by my parents. And i didn't get any entertainment i want at there! Everyday i am praying and praying and praying, or reading bibles or verses. No TV, no games......This solid rotation make me feel that i want to leave! It is not suite my original life at all! It is impossible to pass through those weeks, not to mention months!

At night it is the gospel spreading. And it is the only moment i can go ont and take a breath of the outside world! Man closing me at the church without going out is hard! With all my brothers who training with me, we go to the pasar malam to spread gospel. And to be honest, spreading my own believe to the others is really struggling. I can hardly open my mouth! (What if they scold me? What if they reject me? What if they look us with a cold eyes?) I am standing in the middle of pasar! With my partner who share the same struggle with me! That first night at pasar, we didn't spread the gospel, but we only pray quietly every second.......

Weeks and weeks passed by, i finally have a fight with a brother who sleep the same room with me. We shout at each other. (And it start only because a small matter........). After that fight, i was crying quietly in my heart. I never mean to do that. And dramatically, that day, we hug together, and i finally start crying. I can't stand it, i really miss my home....... And the funny thing is that after this incident, he became my long time companion throughout the training........

Since tat week onward, everyday i feel like a freshman, i start a new life from that day onward, everything is done by myself, doing the houseworks everyday is a must. ( Last time i even have a skin problem on hand which cause me cannot wash that hand for weeks, just only exposial to the excess soap of Dynamo!) Besides that, we go preach gospel, door by door, apartment by apartment. By walking. Then i was expose to different kind of men. (There is a story like, a people, just saw us, ten straight say "nobody home!" and slam the door.......) Even a time i accidentally preached the gospel to a muslim, or try sneak away from the sight of security guards of the apartment.(They dont like promoter like us for some reason.......) Some even think that we are charity and want to donate us money! (And there is a time, I preach to a christian family home, and they generously invite us into their house and offer us a drink, even though we are strangers of them!)....... Banyak macam story, but all of them is really interesting, till now i still feel like yesterday.......

I go there not only read bible everyday, i still got homework to do! I learn Russian and Greek! (Gee why not Japanese......) And they are one of the most hardest language to be learn in the world! (The foreigners thing the chinese is the hardest language to be learnt o..... Dunno why......) Ahem but anyway, i didn't master any of it, really hard even just remember their alphabert....... (Russian have 41 alphaberts if i still remember that, and it has writting alphabert and typing alphaberts which are little different.......)

Well if you think that i just stay at the church only, then you are wrong. At march 2007, i go to the Thailand along with local saints for the conference.( I heard 2008 trainees go Kota Bharu.....). And it is a very very long trip, i sit at the van about 12 hours, and stay for a night at Church in Nabon, and then go for another 6 hours to reach the destination. Man really road sick one.......And havent even close to Bangkok yet...... After some fellowship for 2 days, we then go back. ( I then realise the new generation of Chinese Thai does not know Chinese......) And the funny things is i came back to Malaysia "illegally". And the bribe for Thai polices is cheap, only RM2 per person in the car to cross the border!

But anyway, , at 17 April 2007, i pass the 4 months without give up in the middle, like i expected in the beginning. I still have much to say, but just lazy to share that much. Really going there is not about fun, it is training, to have a proper Christian life.... It is the training physically, mentally and spiritually. Life itself is a training, and it will not end till we take our last breath. Until now i don't feel like leaving that training, even it has pass for 2 years already. Learn to love God, the people around you is not enough..... As a christian, need to be trained by the hand of God everyday, and be His useful and functional vessel. It is not a religious practise, but a proper christian life.