听一听。。。。

Saturday, December 26, 2009

The year end is coming. There is muych to say about this year. There is lots of drastical change which experienced by me this year. From working to going to university then having my first love. This is all are awesome. This year is playing an important moment too to me. However it is not totally a lucky year. But anyway I have pass this year too, and i have reach 20th.

This year, especially recently i was giving a great exposure about my lifestyle, especially my love life. It is ironic, really. I dont know how to share much about this but i can tell that i am back to single again, and the girl i have long chase before is no longer available for me anymore. I fell like i like a shit. A dumped shit. Maybe i was never granted to have these love matter after all. I have tired. I dont want to touch this thing anymore. This is a horrible experience. I keep my real personality a lot for this matter.

The Christmas is just passby. And passing the Gurney drive, i see lots of couple. And i saw lots of couple hangging around. And looking back to my love life, it is like a contrast. I once want to be part of them. But it is impossible maybe. Maybe i can called myself kia shu (afraid to lost). But talking about love. I am loyal. However I am not good, and probably ugly, or i am ugly.

Lord give me such exposure. He want to send me a message that this is what He called love. When you turned out to keep thinking of somebody, you miss her. And that's the same way He miss me, and every precious vessel on His hand. He want to tell me about this. He want me to know what is He thinking right now, that is want me to know what is " love Him". "Love Him" also include " Miss Him". Missing Him and eagering to hear Him and see Him. He always serve me quietly, and want me to serve to other people, and that's the gospel He preach to me. Living a Church life is not easy. That's why i seldom live that life. But now, I just want a quiet life, which doesnt eagering for lust or self righteousness anymore. I just want back to the church life again.

I dont want to think about those love matters anymore. They are not real to me after all...

And by the way, I don't celebrate any Christmas, because the Bible never say anything about Christmas, not to mention the birth of Christ at 25th Dec. And what's more, the Bible didn't tell us to remember His incarnation, but remember His death and resurrection =) And that what's Lord's Table meeting talking about in every Lord's day. (But i didn't attend lately =.=)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

As An Engineer Today

I just heard that the news that engineers are getting lesser salary than the technician. I confess that the technician is certainly more experienced in particular area than the engineers, however, i didn't expect that much. I think it is quite related with the current trend which most of the engineer headed. Actually every technician which has a great skills are more likely to be enployed than the engineers. This is because most of the engineers today are too " theorical". They are lack of the 1st hand of practical experience than most of the technicians. The company can operate without engineer, but the company can't operate without technician! Well sounds hurting, but this is the fact. I believe most of the the engineers today don't even know how to fix their water pipe in their back yard!

I saying this is not criticising the engineers, but must keep in mind, especially those fresh gradurates, that they must see the full picture what is the industry demanding, and the influence of their ability to the society! The cgpa in the campus will become useless when coming out to the society! The knowledge they gained is a gift, a power to change the system of the society! This is what most of the technician does not gifted! Engineers are given the tools to shape and overcome the crisis which faced by the industry today! To become a good engineer is not to become success or influential, but can keep the system of the society running with their gifted knowledge! Most of the engineers are hunger for achievement, hunger for success. That's why they failed to think out of the box! They failed to make a big impact in today's technological field! They refuse to keep up with the latest trend! They willing to allocate more time to earn money that doing the research! I dont know what makes me to write things about that, but before gradurate, i must understand what the industry want to keep up with the society!

Just like this:" If today show up 2 guys, one know how to fix the computer while the other who only know how to talk nonsence about the architecture of the chip in every single chip of computer, Who's more needed to fix the computer??"

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Preparation for SPM

My sis is having a struggling time for preparation for spm

This is her messy table, she never clean it up ever since i clean it after having stpm exam last year. hahaha....... Well saw her keep her phone around calling for help, I remember back the old times exactly like her. Just saw her jubilee laugh after get the answer right..... hahaha....

Well what i can do is only doing my part as a brother to fetch her after test. Good luck to her^^

Red Box

At 18th November, Me, Seng Wah, and Kwan Jou are having fun at the Red box Karaoke. (Seng Wah is the guy who propose wan to go, again (==!!)...... ) Well when we reach the Redbox we then taking the mike and rock on! Well the picture tells all....

We all standing at sofa an sing one (Where is me.....?^^)

I didn't join coz dunno hw to sing cantonese ^^


The drinks we ordered, well they all come in set, so we get 6 cups.( Seng wah drinks the most. haha)

Seng Wah steal the mike again (==!!)

Destroy Red Box Sofa^^

This is the place where we having our lunch, and is all in vegie^^

We later having our dinner at Lily's Restaurant near Machalister Road
Seng Wah's unfinished Laksa at Lily

My unfinished mee soap at Lily

Fried porridge!^^(never heard tat bfore)

Manggis ice cream we shared

Later we got go the Penang Times Square. But we didn't landed even though we have reach the parking lot. It is darn creepy there. The most creepy parking lot ever....... (I didn't take any pic at the parking lot because the surrounding is unconfortable..........)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

The university and I

Well check out the calendar... Now is already 16th November. The time really passby me with a full speed. I really needto appreciate the time back.... I want to download more movie for the entertaining purpose when i go back to kl again. To be honest i am having a pressure life when i was at KL.. I just simply dont know how to entertain myself even though KLCC just a miles away from my hostel. And what's more, i havent put my butt on the chair quietly that time....

To be honest at first i was going to Singapore's university because that was my dream since f6 and during that time i willing to sacrifice my love matter for that, but It seens like i failed to get into the name list..... Then i though that i want to enter IMU where is located at the Bukit Jalil to fulfil my mother's dream as a pharmacist. But then the college there requires me to takes TOEFL english test and when i know that minimum requirement, it is too late for me to register that already. And then i decided to register USM pharmacist to take a bet, since that university allows physics stream student to go into that course...( Later i realise i will transfer to kelantan if i get selected, but who cares?)

Later a friend's of mine suggest me to join into Utar university. Since he know my dream to pursue my master degree. He suggest that utar is a great choice to laid my foundation there. And that university also well known in most of the Singapore company. (And yes, i have heard lot's of people said later... even my dad's also agree that later) That university is going its schedule according to the European's leading syllabus and what's more.... No malays there^^. And that's make the environment more conpetitive.....

Later my mother also help me to register MMU university Mechanical Engineering which is located at Malacca. I didn't know much about that university, so i really did not consider much. And later, my dad's suggest me to go to the Monash University, one of the Australia 5 star university. But looking at the bill, It just freak me out. My master degree plan will be ruined due to the limited budget. So it later also cross over my mind.

Now why i can't make my butt sit quiet? Well there is reasons. When i was at utar back then i also waiting for singapore university and local university reply. The first news of the day is that i was totally rejected by usm. (Pharmacist for me? In my dream!) But i didn't care much. A week later i recieve the offer letter from UTM. And it is my first choice indeed. And during the same time, i get the offer letter form MMU said that i was enlisted. Well here's come the headache part. I only given a week to decide whether i should take the offer letter or reject them sama sekali. So at June it was the most critical moment in my life. I was given the choices and decide where should i be.

Since i didn't know MMU much, and heard that some lectures have been transfered to utar along with the dean of the Engineering there, I feel that staying at utar might be a better choice. like my friend suggest. But what about UTM mechatronic subject? Well i cant tell how good it is, but according to the general fact that local univercities lecturers are seldom teaching much during lecture hours, i feel that this must also put into my concern. And what's more, i also learnt that some of my friends at utar there also reject the utm offer.... the offer they recieve got one is mechatronic, one mechanical, one civil and one electrical.......

Ok why not utm mechatronics again? Well hell yeah i loves robotic, but think deeply, if i want to pursue my master at singapore they wont offer a mechatronic course for me! And like my friend say oso, sometimes hobby can't be taken as a career. And if i like robot that much, go join to the robotic club! ( Well later i only know utm is one of the powerhouse in the annually robotic competition while utar just successfully make their 1st robot to the competition last year..... But who cares, I just want to join and learn, not join and win!) What's important is i want to learn in the environment where getting good result is as hard as impossible. And yes, i love difficulties. (That's why i join f6 in the first place, and call me wierdo if you like!)

And lastly mechanical and mechatronics, my dad want me to study mechanical as there is wider career prospects than mechatronics. And i already accept my fate as a mechanical student, without giving up the electronics knowledge. And whats more, mechanical student will cover the subjects like solid mechanics, fluid mechanics, material sciences and bla bla........ So forget about it. I loves mechanical now and that's that. With so much concern get into my mind, and dont know how to entertain myself, don't expect i have any confortable life yet at the 1st semester. But i will promise myself, i will get a better life next semester. And what next...? I will try my way to find my campus life out there. And having more entertainment and more freedom to move outside. No more cages life for me again!

Just an ordinary day

These days I have some bad feeling which I don’t know how to describe. Somethings wrong with me. Lately I easily fed up for some simple mistakes. In short, I become short tempered lately.I wonder what is happening on me. Even when I live in KL, I also easily fed up. This is not really my character when I was before. I want to understand myself more before it became worsen. Have a cup of coffee and cool down first.

One of the reason that I discover is that when I am looking at the laptop for a long time I will easily get fed up. Maybe is the brightness setting. But I have already set to its minimum amplitude and it is still like irritating my eyes. I will forced to use the screen protector even though I haven’t found my laptop screen size yet and the screen will show some pop up bubble when I stick on the screen later.

Ohya lately I am working on a storyline which based on the life which happening on me in f6. …….I want to jolt down all the detail which happen at past.

My sis is having exam soon, and I am worry about her, superb! She didn’t do much pass year question and when I tell her, she just respond like is respond :” Ah na Ah na..” And when she is study, her handphone always stick on her hand and always call her friends. Even the test is only 2 days left she still want to go to school just to pass some notes to her friends. I cant tell what’s next, well just all rest on her hand.


A Rising Tide (Gun X Sword ending theme)
On a mountain high
[dig a hole again]
Then I dream and fly away
But without you

On my knees and pray
Torn apart again
I can count the reasons
But maybe the mind
Deceives

There's a show in here
The things we can't express
So come inside
Is it time to start moving on?
Time to believe?

See the red rain here
The things we can't express
So give me my sword
Oh it will be better when it's done
My Eyes don't deceive
Give me my sword

I can hear your voice
From the dark again
Everything is underway
But without you

At the break of day
Feeling whole again
I've found lots of reasons
Now here's one I can
Believe in

There's a show in here
The sound of my distress
A rising tide
Well it might be better in the sun
Time to believe

See the red rain here
The things we can't express
So give me my sword
Oh it will be better when it's done
My eyes don't deceive

There's a show in here
The things we can't express
So come inside
Oh it's time to start moving on
Time to believe
Give me my sword

Gundum History

最近在考察着高达的故事纲要。。。。看到一个forum 把它的故事写得很明白。。。下面只是 Gundum UC 0079~0080的故事。。。跟Gundum Seed 和Gundum 00 无关。。。旧时代的高达作品比较写实,因为这里没有一个高达是可以一对一百个MS的高达,而且还加上了很多机械和政治的关连。作品豪迈而直接。。。一点也不罗嗦。所以最近爱上看它了。下面是高达战争的故事背景和历史。。。。

公元1999年,面临人口、资源、环境各方面危机的人类社会终于为携手开创新时代而实现统一,成立地球联邦政府,并发表人类宇宙移民计划。之后为了保证地球圈的安定与和平,2009年,地球联邦军正式建立。

2045年,第1号太空殖民卫星开始动工建造,之后陆续又建起许多殖民卫星,并根据宙域将其划分为SIDE1至SIDE7七个区域。当人类开始向最初的卫 星移民时,人类历史便进入了宇宙世纪,纪元亦改为宇宙世纪(简称U.C)0001年,那一年地球总人口已突破90亿大关。

U.C.0027年,第一座月面永久型都市“冯·布拉文”完工,此后至0040年为止,实现了总人口的40%(约50亿人)向宇宙的移民。

0045年,小行星尤诺进入月球轨道并开始周期性稳定运行,后称为路纳Ⅱ(LUNAR2)。0050年,人类总人口已达110亿,其中90亿为宇宙移民。 然而,地球联邦政府并未制定确保宇宙移民权利的有力政策,仍然以地球为中心,加上联邦内官僚主义风气日盛,使宇宙移民的不满情绪上涨。

0058年,在距地球最远的宇宙都市(殖民卫星群)SIDE3,由政治家吉恩·兹姆·戴肯发表SIDE3独立宣言,成立吉恩(ZION)共和国,并建立国防队。联邦政府对此作出了向吉恩施加经济压力的反应。

图为吉恩.戴肯在演说

0060年,地球联邦军开始了60年代扩军计划(尤其以宇宙舰队为主)。路纳Ⅱ被作为军事基地而使用。

0062年,吉恩国防部队升格为国军。

0068年,吉恩·兹姆·戴肯死亡(存在被暗杀的可能性),由迪金·梭德·扎比继任首相一职。

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迪金·梭德·扎比

0069年8月15日,迪金以吉恩公王之名发表吉恩公国宣言,开始实行扎比家独裁政治,放逐吉恩派。

同年,一项历史性科技成果,为吉恩公国的科学家T·Y·米诺夫斯基博士取得,他经多年研究,终于证实了一种电荷粒子的存在。这种被其命名为米诺夫斯基粒子 (简称M粒子)的物质,可产生反重力场及拥有影响并阻碍电磁波传送的性质,并且,当人为地大量散布时,可达到令雷达等侦察、通讯系统失灵的效果。也就是 说,若在战场大量散布M粒子,将会使现有的作战系统几乎完全失去战斗力。认识到其重大战术价值的公国军方,在0070年完成MEGA粒子炮的研制后,于 0071年着手可在M粒子环境下作战的新兵器的开发,并终于在0073年,推出了第一台新兵器的原型机。

新型兵器被命名为“机动战士”——MOBILE SUIT(简称MS)。因为在M粒子的环境下,靠目视的接近战不可避免地将成为战斗的主体,所以MS采用十八米左右身高的巨大机器人型态的设计。第一台机动战士的型号,便定为MS-01。

在这几年间,双方战略方面的变动包括联邦方面为建设SIDE7,将路纳Ⅱ向月球轨道的反向移动;吉恩在小行星阿克西斯建立军事基地等。然而军事技术方面,当吉恩取得米诺夫斯基粒子等科研成果并开发机动战士时,联邦军方面却基本处于停滞状态。

0074年,搭载米诺夫斯基型核融合炉的机动战士MS-05扎克ZAKU(后通称为旧扎克)出厂。次年,可在M粒子环境下作战的新型母舰亦完成开发。
MS-06FZ Zaku II Kai

0078年初吉恩公国军将强化型扎克(改)MS-06投入大量生产。同年10月,公国发表全国总动员令。

0079年1月3日,吉恩公国向地球联邦政府发表独立战争的宣战布告,同时向SIDE1、2、4发动奇袭,大量热核武器被投入使用,殖民卫星坠毁至地球, 引起大规模气象变动。以3日至10日为战争主体,被称为一周间战争,在这期间双方军队及被卷入战争而死亡的平民达30亿之多,相当人类总数的40%。这便 是第一次宇宙战争的开端,因历时近一年之久,史称“一年战争”。
1月11日,SIDE6发表中立宣言。

面临空前困境的联邦政府,为阻止吉恩公国军继续卫星落下作战,于SIDE5的卫星群“卢沃姆”与吉恩军展开了正面激战,虽令吉恩军元气大伤,但终以败北告 终,联邦的雷比尔将军亦遭俘虏。吉恩军中许多勇士在此战中名扬天下,包括擒获雷比尔将军的“黑色三连星”盖亚、马修、奥尔迪加,以及驾驶红色扎克、独自一 人击毁五艘联邦军战舰的少年军官“赤色彗星”夏亚·亚兹纳布尔等等。

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夏亚·亚兹纳布尔
同月,联邦军的MS投入大量生产,其中以型态与高达相似的RGM-79“GM”为主,至11月底GM开始用于实战。而吉恩公国方面则将更多的新型强力MS投入战场,同时加紧对NEW TYPE用于实战发挥的研究。
RGM-79G GM Command(联邦)

此时的阿姆罗,正面临情绪的底谷:“青色巨星”兰博·拉鲁等强敌不断袭来、母亲对他作为军人的不谅解、自身作为重要战士所承受的巨大负担……各方面压 力几乎不堪忍受。然而,正是因为经历这一切,使他已成长起来。同时阿姆罗作为NEW TYPE的代表,使这种能力的重要性受到联邦军内的日益重视。

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阿姆罗
  

11月7日,联邦军发动夺回俄罗斯地区的奥德赛作战,为时3天的战役以联邦军的胜利告终,阿姆罗在此战中,创出了击败黑色三连星的著名佳绩。其后公国军对加布罗的攻击亦被联邦军击败,整个战局形势逆转。
MS-09RII Rick Dom II (黑色三连星)

12月14日,联邦军发动了以吉恩本土为目标的星1号作战;15日,对北美、非洲等地的公国军展开扫荡;24日,联邦军在宇宙发动所罗门攻略战,在这 场战斗中,扎比家担任宇宙方面司令官的第三子多兹鲁中将,为掩护自军撤退,亲自驾驶巨型机动装甲(MA)“魔霸”与阿姆罗的高达交战,最终为阿姆罗击败身 亡。

12月30日,迪金公王准备与联邦军进行会谈,看到和平曙光的人们莫不额手称庆,然而,不愿休战的人仍然存在。就在双方舰队聚集在一起时,吉伦·扎比 竟使用SIDE3的吉恩最终防卫武器“太阳系统”——卫星激光炮发动了攻击,在超巨大的光束中,将联邦军的宇宙舰队,与自己的父王迪金及其直属舰队一起化 为灰烬……

面对这一意外巨变,联邦军于次日对吉恩的最终防线阿·保亚·库发动了全面攻击,而担任吉恩总帅的吉伦,被扎比家长女姬西莉亚少将以弑父罪名射杀,其后姬西莉亚指挥吉恩军作战,但终被联邦军击败。
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白色要塞(联邦)

白色要塞队及阿姆罗当然地也参与了此次战役。然而,阿姆罗与夏亚两人你死我活地激斗,甚至座机毁坏后继续刀剑相向却另有原因。

事情要追溯到夏亚很小时,当时一名有着印度血统的弧女拉拉·辛被他所收养,而拉拉由于天生具有NEW TYPE素质,此次战争中来到战场上夏亚的身旁。具备NEW TYPE能力的拉拉,与同样是NEW TYPE的阿姆罗的精神场产生了共鸣,了解到阿姆罗的内心。所以对拉拉而言,一位是同为NEW TYPE的知己,一位是青梅竹马的恩人。同样,无论对阿姆罗和夏亚而言,拉拉都是超越敌我界限的重要人物。然而,在战争已接近尾声时,两人驾MS的对决 中,高达的光剑却误中了拉拉所乘战机的座舱并贯穿而过……

将悲愤的两人间进行的决斗阻止的,是白色要塞的女性士官莎拉,一直关怀着阿姆罗的人,而且她不为人知的真实身份,竟是夏亚的亲妹妹,两人失散多年,直 到夏亚攻击SIDE7时才偶然相见。被阻止的两人总算恢复了一些理性,阿姆罗以精神感应通知白色要塞的同伴们基地即将爆炸后成功脱离,而夏亚则继续他要做 的事,将扎比家的最后一人,正准备败走逃亡的姬西莉亚,连同所乘的旗舰一起击毁。而夏亚在这之后的去向,则没有人知晓……

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莎拉(夏亚的亲妹妹)

0080年1月1日,联邦与吉恩终于在月面的格拉纳达基地缔结停战协定。一年战争结束了,然而阿姆罗与夏亚心中留下的创伤,以及战争留给所有人的遗憾,恐怕永远也没法消去…


(Sources by Chinese Cari Forum 高达交流区)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Gundum Fever!!

Well it is a while already since i start to blogging here again although i have some free time at home... well most recently activity is making a Gundum model for me. It is all pure white in skin and i feel like i love it ^^. I get a good prize on the shop in pacific, my friend say it is made in china so its quality is sucks...(Well i quite agree with that , especially when i am doing the joint part......) I use the presser so hard till it really freak me out!! I would like to buy another one but another person i know warn me not to buy one again ~~~T.T







Wednesday, October 7, 2009

yeah!!

今天终以可以回家了。。。回到家的感觉真爽!!我好久没试过这么爽了!回到家当然先大吃一翻!!我终以可以再释放了!!
很多人不知我假期要做什么。。。我本身也不是很确定,但最重要就是要开心!可以玩就玩,可以吃就吃。可以学就学。最重要就是我不必被功课绑住!爽啊啊啊!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

All right, here is some part i want to share, and it is quite hilirious. I jz want to write my blog now, and then i want to go to toilet, but i don't have toilet paper, so i expect one at the toilet, And sadly to say the toilet didn't have any toilet paper left! So i go to the other block's toilet to finish my job. And what fusfrating me is every toilet i went don't have toilet paper!! And canteen already closed. (Yup, they close very early one, not "user friendly" at all.) So i don't know where to find one. And it is too far and too late to go outside to buy one. So i.....( You wouldn't want to know, my friend....(><)....) And after finishing my job at toilet, I back to computer lab, and shocking discover that a packet of tissue paper just left on my next computer right now. I just feel OMG........ (><)

Gee kj and lip hong are back to bm now. Just left me alone at KL...... With load of assignments and reports. Sngh.......(T.T)

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Havent update this post for years... Now i am back di. Hahaha......... assignment, report, everything new. Well i didn't feel much pressure as i feel previously, and everything still going ok yet..... But duno la. C later........

I start to miss my friends at BM, all hae go to local uni di. To be honest i dunno hw much i struggle to make a decision weather to stay at local or utar. And nw, i am typing at Utar computer lab. Lots of things havent sloved yet. I still havent get a printer for printing. I want to use it for long term, and still, i didn't get a good access on the utar website. My account maybe got problem, causing me cant download up-to-date notes, and need to borrow from friends. But sometimes they need it, so i can only starring on the slide during the lecture. The campus here quite small, And i won't take me long to walk from a corner to another corner. Hehehe......... Well everything still fine here, and i feel comfortable yet, except getting those stupid lecture notes......... Maybe i am staying at right place for my further study.

Eating at here is expensive, and i thin a lot. But the food at here still ok, and i easily adopted to the environment here...... Near LRT, near food court, near bus stop. I can do almost everything.
But still, My net still not good enough to access the msn messanger, and become my real problem in the social chatting...........And net here not so good, So i can only online here.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

ENJOY AND ENJOY!!!!

These 2 days..... I stay at home and doing NOTTING!! Yay~~~~~~ Now i feel like i am having a nice holiday break~~~~~~ Really start feel enjoy. Now, erase those problem rotating on my mind, get a spoonful of ice cream put into my cup, and eat it while enjoy watching the tv show that i like it the most, then i go upstairs and start read my favourites books. When tired, I go to sleep~~~~~ till dinner, and then online till late late, and wake up in other day~~~~~~~~~ hehehe........

Saturday, May 23, 2009

UTAR and everything bout it. Zzzzzz........

One more week left before my depart to kl. Now what i need to do left...?

Ah yes........ I go search the google earth and see where it located. Well apparently to me, it looked quite small compare to ktar.........



Well on the right side of the silver building, it is UTAR building. And on the left is KTAR building......I just confused... Did they just share the building? Or the KTAR really that big....??( Or is UTAR really tat small....??)

Ahem.... that's nt the point.... Nw i should preparing the things like.... Who am i going with? My family or my friend? Hw long will stay with my friend? What things should i take? and etc etc.... Even my parents start to compare my mechatronic course with mechanical, and Monash with Utar. Really sick of keep explaining to them~~~~~~ Now i really miss my holiday~~~~ aiz......

ok ok stop reminding my holiday again!!!! Now the future is going and going~~~~~ 人生有多少个十年??If i dont know hw to appreciate it, I will sorry for myself. At least I tell myself, This long break changed me a lot. I learn from it. And it have become my stepping stone to grow up!! So stop flashback to it!! hahahaha.........(Going Kelantan 5 times a month is , to my friends, is nuts.... But to me, amen!!) hahaha..........

Ohya, i will looking forward to meet some of my friends there. hahaha..........

Friday, May 22, 2009

My car and Myself......



This is a True story
about my car
It accompany me since i was standard 5
that time it was my mum who drove it.
But that's another story...
I seldom feel this car existance
Till at 11th June 2007
I get my first P lisence
So my dad allow me to drive it
and tell me that from that day onward
I drive that car to school EVERY DAY
Well i didn't dare to look at the wheel.
I felt a big responsibility hanging on my shoulder.
And all the story was started
When i first step on the padel...
So I may ask
What is so special about this car?
Why i need to state it.
I tell you
Ever since i start driving,
never a day i stop from driving
I almost driving everyday for 2 years di.......
I was given lots of responsibility
going to lots of place
Because of this car
my social circle grew bigger drastically
I drive
From Bukit Mertajam
To Seberang Jaya
From Butterworth
To Penang
From Nibong Tebal
To Kepala Batas
From enjoying driving from the start
To hate driving in the end...
However it is an influencial experience
because i almost spend at least 2 hours per day
driving around Bukit Mertajam.
It is an dilemma
I like this experience eventually
Because i wont get this chance to drive that much after next week anymore......
When i remind about my car
I remind about my f6 life
To be honest i really miss f6 life.....
Even though i really hate it
It keeps reminds me
how desperate that time i want to escape that life
Everyday go to school like go to hell
Not much people will understand how hard and desperate i past these hard moments.....
I even started to consider shifting my f6 to foundation at mmu.
But i stay eventually , and give me the greatest suffer of all time...
And ever since that time
I never believe in fairy tales
I does not deserve to have one, not at all.
Almost along my school life at f6
I am not happy......
But also give me the hardest experience that i ever forget!!
These 2 years is just like a dream
just like yesterday
I think no one of my friend will dream of f6
like me EVERYDAY
In my memory
f6 like yesterday, and it will never faded.
And my car is helping me remembering my f6 every moment......

Friday, May 15, 2009

Climbing Hill

Today I feel sampat, coz I wake up early and pull my friends to go climb a hill here. And we all still want to get more sleep.......
Well you can see how tired am i from my face. Really it takes me forever for me to hike to the top. And when i thought a nice and beautiful scene awaits me. Only then I realised that i am reaching the gate of a celcom satelite tower!!! SO DISSAPOINTING!!!
But anyway i still manage to use the remaining energy left to take some pic... And these 2 are my friends who follow me to reach such proud achievement. Hehe...... See hw excited am i?? Hehe......


And here's how i share my excitement with tom


And then the following day, I spend my time lying on my bed, suffering back ache and leg ache and pigu ache........ And suffer the same pain for the rest of the days.....

Monday, May 4, 2009

A wierd and hard day

Ok today i encounter lots of things that i can't even imgine that it will happen on me. And here is what it is..
  1. Today I can't start my car engine. Dunno why. Maybe is the car battery is almost finish, or the petrol which i fueled has bubbles inside the engine starting kit. Just then the alarm suddenly turn on by itself!! I just like omg! And i want to close it but fail. And the irritating sound keep on and on, and disturbing the neighbourhood! I feel so like want to find a hole and put my head inside it! But then the alarm will stop. I thought is over. Just then, when i open the door, the alarm sound up again!! and wait for one minute for it to shut up by itself. And what make things more desperate, I want to have lunch outside! And i didn't eat my breakfast! So with no choice, i walk out and go find the nearest retaurant. And walk under the big sun is susah my skin!! (T.T)
  2. Today morning when i woke up, suddenly i saw a bird fly into my room!! I just shock till wake up. Flying in a small room, itseems like flying in a high speed. And i feel that it is impossible to fly into my rom because the upstair is like sealed. There is no holes for it to fly in! I try to get it away but fail. So i just go downstairs and prepare a long plastic stick, try to make some noice to scare it away. But then, i get a call from my friends. And after finish the call, i back to buisness. And thank God that the bird is dissapear di. But sad that it leave a shit as a gift for me. Me really "haiz".......
  3. My mum is going for a surgery. So i was force to redraw myself from the trip to kl for 2 weeks. And she will need to stay at hospital start from wednesday. And I will then in charge of the duty at home. Really so sudden! And add more loneliness at my home(T.T)
  4. During afternoon, i get a phone call from Hong Kong, saying that i get 2nd prize for getting the lottery. Teorically i no need to believe, but in my heart, i still have the desire to believe it! I feel that it is not right! And like i am greedy and eventually i will get tricked. I must turn to the Lord. And must believe that money can't drop from the sky by itself!!

Ok!!! Back to buisness~~~!!! Like thinking that today incidents is jokes to me ok di!!!! Wahahahahaha..........

Friday, April 24, 2009

Mixed feel about life

Lately I feel like want to share lots of things on my mind. I don't know why i have such wierd feeling. Like I have something that has been hidden in my heart for years. Whenever i want to speak it out, I will have the feel that want me to remain silence. because i know that maybe nobody will understand me. Even myself also can't translate what i was thinking on my mind. Within myself there was hidden a depression. That depression make me feel that my life is still not complete. Whenever i feel free, a sense of vanity will be felt. And what make it worse is that i does not know what my heart really want.

Although it sounds wierd, but sometimes i will feel like this, like:" Ai... Today i can't get the things i want, look how misery of me......" But sometimes i will start to enjoy such self-pitiness. And feel like want to make the world feel that i am a pity guy. A wierd human sense though..... Maybe that's how the " negative feel" came from.......

But it is really an unfair assumption to think myself like that. There are many more people who are living in a harder circumstance than me right now. It is really unfair to label myself " pity"!! Maybe i just struggle to find another channel to express my unhappiness. That doesn't mean that i am negative minded. If think like that, I can realise that i am not an unhappy person, I am just a person who want to express my problem to others. That's all.

" You Think, Therefore you are." That's a word which i learnt from my friends. And lately i study the book " Law of Attraction". I even more agreed with such assumption. And believe it or not, there IS a law of attraction which surrounds us. Everytime our mind will exert one frequence once a time. Whenever we are feel depress, we only exert negative frequency, which will eventuall absorb negative things into our energy field. So we just to need to change the channel to positive frequence, we will experience the different results.

Our mind is just like a radio. Our antenna will only absorb frequencies which we are thinking on our mind. Weather is positive or negative. Well to me. It is hard to always think positive. So to me, let's just be ourselves and live with a happy mind. And if we encounter the problems, the law can be carried out and be applied. And we think positive is not a job which is telling lie to ourself, (If we think like that we only will exert more negative frequency..) It is just like yoga, which help us cleanse our mind and be ourself again....... Wait what was i babbling about...?? Got problem go sleep la. Get a moment of eye close.. Zzzzzzz...........

Thursday, April 23, 2009

The decision is final. Maybe......

Jimmy said to me this afternoon, that the application outcome for Nanyang Technological university has released. I was full with hope and suprise, that the day of decision has come. So with full hope i go to online and check the status. And the statement really bother me then....

" Your application is still under consideration, The application result will be notified as late as July 2009"

Say WHAT???? Jimmy already get the result already and i still haven't know yet?? That means... I now is competiting with other university entries holders within the region di like Vietnam, Thailand, Indonesia........We Malaysia already have 4 different test holder like UEC, A-Level, STPM,Australian Matriculation pun ada! I just so like "omg!!" Is it that my chance is over? Or i am in the secondary consideration list.....??

Even i manage to enter, will i manage to survive? Or will i end up suicide there? (Choi!! Touch WOOD!!.........)For those reason, willing or not, i may go to study at utar........ My friend give me a thumb down for my decision, say that :"U deserved better university", "U can take the HELP or MMU, "U should wait for the local university!! Or u study form 6 for what..??".....etc The wave of rejection is huge, and i so like " Man!! Money oso give liao, what to do....??" Till KJ gt confort me, gt stand up for my decision. (Thanks for that. Hehe.......) I think my plan is like that For May and June then, and here's what on my mind......

First 2 weeks of May: Go KL training
Last 2 week sof May: Go out and hang out with friends
May 28th: Back to KL for Utar entry registeration
May~July: Study at UTAR while wait for application outcome for both local and Singapore university

That is my plan 1st. It still might change with the trend. See what will happen at May till July........

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Busy...? Lazee....?

My friends usualy will ask me a simple question:" So how are you doing lately." And my reply is tat i keep leisuring at home. I couldn't refresh what am i doing for past few weeks. But then, my parents keep nagging me that i does not spending time at home very much, keep go out and come back late. Well the statement is true.... And now.. I try to list some new and crazy things i have experienced which i can remember...

1. There is one night i come back home at 2am midnight because i watch midnight movie with friends.

2. I drive as far as Nibong Tebal and Kepala Batas for 1st time

3. My first car accident ever since i start driving

4. I go to Kelantan 4 times in a month. (And my first driving experience at Kota Bharu.)

5. First time i witness hyperactive children and how they behave

6.There is one time i go out from home at 9am morning and come back home at 11.30pm night. (Realy crazy though..)

7.I witness 3 car accidents in a month (Is it luck or.......??)

8.My first hill hiking at Bukit Tekun ( I never know it located near my house....!!)

9. There is one time i go watch 3 movies in 3 days continuously.... ( Gee what a waste..!)

10.There is a week when i fuel up my car twice a week! ( And i have a big explanation for my dad)

11.There is a week when i only spend my time having dinner with my parents only once in a week.

12. I have passed through USM branches at Kota Bharu, Penang and Nibong Tebal di......

13. I have written 6 English essays in applying scholarships...... ( I get bad temper that time because of that..)

I now start counting the holidays left on my hand. I won't get as much leisuer time as i want to later di... I now start to tresure every moment i have on my hand. Hope that i won't waste it again...

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

First Car accident

22th March~~

Today is the historical day of my life. Well not something to proud of. I experience my 1st car accident. Well it not totally my fault. And i will tell you why...

After back from Berapit, i went home, and reach a small road of my taman. The opposite road does not have car. So i go on the middle of road, behind a motorcycle. And suddenly, the motorcycle turn to right from the left side of my car! (That means it is turning his bike to the front of my car!) I couldn't make an immediate stop, and BOOM!

Well there was 2 Indians, one male and one female. They got minor injuries. (Man i didn't hit them, my car just touched their bike. ) Ok then i start to walk out from my car, with a grim expression. (And they also show a unplesant look at me.) I beg for apologize from them, but they simply reply:" Sorry?? Everyone will say sorry ! No use one! An accident not because of a sorry!" ( Man i was trying to be nice to them. I know i was wrong for sticking my car too near to them. But they didn't even look back nor making any damn signal when they make a turn. At least they must raise their hand when turn their bike mah! They thought they 100% right meh???)

What make me even furious that they questioning me that i got a licence tak! (Look buddy, I drive at least 3 hours every single day ever since i get my licence 2 years ago!! And you questioning my driving ability???You are the people who i always meet that like to make a turn that suka hati!! And you even say i cut you! I didn't even speed darn it!! If I speed, you now can't even make a shout to me like that already!!) But i didn't say, not because i scare of him. Because i don't want to mess things up. I keep quiet, with an unstatisfy look.

All right, her sister looked injured. I take them to the nearest clinic. And try to make this problem more easier to solved.I politely shake their hand, enquire their injuries, and something. And then that guy looked more calm than just now. Ok then, my dad follow by, and paid their medical fee. Plus the damage of their bike, totally Rm200. I trying to return back that amount of money to my dad. But my dad refuse to accept it. That's make me even feel guilty about that accident. I feel like i am not responsible enough. Just feel relief that it didn't cause any more problems to me. The case is close. I must drive more careful next time, and learn to condemn people for their mistakes if things happen like that again.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Hello Kelantan here i come~~


Today I will pack up my things to Kelantan. Well not everyone will believe that. Because the decision is made 2 days before the departure day. So of course no one notice my disaperance. And sorry for any inconvinence that i made. Because i close my handphone for most of the time.

Ok i start my journey at 10am, with a van. I didn't go with my family. I go with 4 months trainees from Penang. We go there not for any entertainment, but to preach Christ to the residents there. Our destination is Kota Bharu. And i take some pics on the road...


Ok, we take a stop for toilet at a petrol station. And i found out that the toilet there small and smelly. Then i saw a notice on the wall. More like an excuse to me...(*_*)
Ok now start take more pics.......



Ohya, when we reach Tanah Merah, it already start raining.....


Ok, then we have a stop to a USM branch there, we go in there and try to preach gospel and some brocheurs to students there, but then find out that most of them are Malay students! I hardly find any chinese there........(Is doctor that busy to come out for a walk...??)



We later have dinner. And wow, I ate a nasi goreng, which win 1st prize before at the cooking competition at Kota Bharu!


And wantan soap there also delicious!


Later that, We put or luggage at local church there, we will spend 2 nights there. And we have some fellowship with saints there. There is even a brother who come from East Malaysia just to come and built up the church there. I so touched.........

Later that, a group of brothers, that is including me, go to meet a gospel friend who is a student at USM. And we invite him to have a supper outside. We reach Tepi Sungai, ( Well it really near seaside there.....) and chose a restaurant which has its unique identity.

The shop owner must be a bike manic......(*_*)

And check out the food there, the drinks really special! The noodle is so spicy~~~


The night view of seaside just in front of the restaurant

We have a great time with gospel friend there. When we reach church, it already 1 am...... We have a simple prayer and go to sleep.

And coincident that night, Kota Bharu no electricity for an hour....... Make that night so hot!(T.T)