I now feel tired and depress Mr. Diary. You see, I didnt get a enough sleep lately, and apparently I cant get my things done in a positive way. Like in rental problem, I think i am not good enough to handle and become a burden of everyone. That's what i dont want to happen. In club activity I cant contribute any much as I am not skilled enough. That's what I dont want to happen. And apparently I have keep a promise for someone and for some reason I like to tunggal the reason a lot. And that's what I dont want to happen. A friend of mine is birthday this moment. I greet her and she didn't reply. I dont want to post at facebook wall because I feel that's is not I want to do. And I dont want to know any clue what is she up to now because I dont want remind that anymore, and that 's what I dont want to happen.

You see Mr. Diary, I feel like I am a failure. I study a year slow than my same age friends now, I cant make a frim decision when i want to decide. I cant find a good topic to laugh when I was stress like now. And apparently I am not good and failure. But even so I not willing to give up. Because that's what I only left even I lost the whole world. I am not good but I always want to keep things right. That's what i always fought for and not letting go. Because Christ is leading the pathways. He always make me feel that I am here..

But still, I am not happy. It is almost 2 years di. I still cant understand why i cant let go. Maybe I already let go long before, but i just keep collect it back. And yes, I am a bullshit. But again, I wont give up. Because that's what i am left.

Ordinary day

Today my math test has finally ended. I feel quite a relief because i have finish all i should i done at saturday. Therefore there is no more reason for me to stay at saturday class anymore. And right now i feel quiet tired after come back from the church meeting. And later i straight go to the facebook pages. I think i have quite addicted to the facebook stuff. I should start to control. M test is coming. I should remember that always.

And by the way, mr. diary. Lately the room problem has arise from now. And apparently everyone is he victim. I think everything can be solved by some communication. I hope next sem i wont face such problem. In this problem they want me to be like the people in charge. Well if i am capable enough to take such burden, i can. But the condition that i dont want to be bonded by the contract. That's what i hate the most. Therefore i hope there is some cooperation going on the neighbourhood.

Now talk bout my study. I think there is lot's of leftover that i still havent study . I think i need to buckle up to catch up the latest study trend. It is important for me to keep up the pace. I think i should start work hard and gambatte. This sem will be over soon, and i have gain some knowledge which is important to me. And i will keep on learning. ADD OIL FOR ME

You know, Mr.diary, i still want to chat with you more, dont know why. Maybe that will make me feel much better. I now want to do things and some progression in my life. And therefore i dislike to waste the time. However i still keep staring at facebook. Apparently it is not healthy for me. Therefore Mr. Diary, I want to talk to you more often. So i can change my attention to you. =)

Normal routine as always

I just came back from church small group meeting at 10pm like that, and yes the sisters are trying to tell me to go back to normal church life again. Well it is not that i dont want to listen. I am listening, but i oso need some rest. Hey gimme a break~! I already feel tired di. I just wanna have some rest~~!

I now quite tension. I still got dynamics report yet to do . and need to revise for those things i have learned. I need some time to do some practise.. I am lack of it. that's why i didnt do well in exam. It is just a month away from the final, I need to start to work out already.

Talk about work out, i always forget about the application of tat ptptn stuff. Next monday if i not wrong is the summation day. I think i need to do something about it....

Good Morning

Notting Gonna Change My Love For You by 方大同
Hey good morning~~!! Today I really feel good. I have sleep for 9 hours today, when wake up straight open facebook and online, and only later have school at 12pm. It is indeed a relaxing morning. But later i need to go to take the book i ordered to photostat outside. Taking a warm breeze of air make me feel that i am back again~!

Oh My Goodness~~~!!!!

I was total surprise, a friend of mine who are same age with me are already reaching year 3! I feel that he is a good leader and example for me~~ And my dear kj lh tom too. They have learn much more than me. I feel that I have been left out a lot in everything. During that time I really got blame myself why I was wasting so much time at f6..

But think back again even I study foundation of matriculation or whatever, I feel that I am still not ready that time since that I was pampered quite a lot at home. Therefore I am really fighting hard to chase their ability now. I should not feel that I have learn a lot or something, because I still being dumped quite hard at the back. However even though I go to learn the external knowledge I must not forget to keep chasing my current sem syllabus, I don't want to repeat the nightmare which happen at Solid and Maths test... Gambatte to me~~!!!

During the robotic activity I was having allergic again.... Skin allergic. Even that i can choose to go home, but I still want to stay at the workshop, because I damn love robotic~~!!! But I didn't do much because I cant concentrate.... But I still want to learn more... I don't want be so blur again at there next time~~!!! Now i am doing my report of the G clamp. Tomorrow I will having experiment again....

说谎，林宥嘉
Today I dun want to go out anywhere, I am alone at home again, purposely. I lazy to play badminton with friends or go to the church with brothers today.........Today i finally give a great time to interact with myself, no any other people at home, but me =). There is going to be a rain outside later, but i dont care, I just listening song everyday, download my ebooks, and watch movies. A great day without going anywhere. =) I feel relax, totally, today i will start to regenerate myself again for another big day..

Sometimes it is very important to give trust to people, especially people who are around you. They like a mirror, reflects what you are giving to them. Therefore if trust them enought, share with them what you have....( Hey why I suddenly crap this stuff =.=)

Terrible!

Terrible terrible terrible! Today i did a terrible test! Even though i did got prepare, I feel that i am not good! But that's a good sign, I wont feel that i am so capable after all. I will start focus in study after a long time busy around with the assignment. I will going to retune my study time. And keep distraction as much as possible. Now is to keep up confidence to keep moving! ( But no matter how busy, I wont give up my robotic activity, i damn love it =)...... )

我愿意by王菲
The test is just tomorrow, and i still dont like study, I just try some questions and testing that i am really okay or not. I dont even know where is the venue and time for the test! It is already 1am and i am still online here. I think i have to a certain extend addicted to internet..

I simply love tis song, a simple lyric, a simple rhythm, but a romantic and a heart melting melody. It make my mood feel relax and no more pressure. Tomorrow I will have Japanese class and a Solid Test, add oil for me again~~~

Stary Stary night

Finally today i finish 2 Engineer in Society assignment, just now went back at 11pm again =.=, after having a brief reading of Solid Mechanics, I have rush to do assignment again. And Hell yeah now is 2.35am of Friday, I am so gonna kill myself anyway, now let's refresh, I am learning the Shear Force and Bending Moment diagram, and lazy to type laa, I will have test at saturday. 2molo i need to wake up at 8am and busy robotic at 9am again. I need a time to have a deep revision!!